Here I am with a new blog template and a refreshed commitment to write blogs again. You look at the few blogs scattered on this website and you will notice a pattern.
Everytime the writing phase starts with:
- I need a better writing experience
- Here are all the topics I want to write about. (Spoiler alert: they are software development related)
- Realize that there are a lot of smarter people than me that already wrote about these topics
- Write nothing
Notice anything? point 3 is the issue.
So what’s the point of writing all this? Well, I wanted to reflect on it. Just wanted somewhere where I could organize my thoughts and feelings on this topic and as it happens, writing actually helps with this.
First, I want to ask myself why I want to write? Well, mainly to prove to myself that I do creative/interesting work. There’s this notion that runs in my head that most software engineers are json JSON handlers. Do you ever get this feeling that your work is just calling an API and showing stuff on a screen? Well, I am wrong. During that process of self-deprecation, I realized that actually I do some cool stuff. Stuff that I am proud of. It’s just my brain is too exhausted and scattered to write about.
This leads nicely into my second point; I almost always don’t know where to start. To me, starting feels like a daunting task where I have to build context and share the why. Articulating that is somehow hard for me. Maybe because I think readers will lose interest, and yes, a big part of why I am writing is to get your attention and show you something cool that I did.
Which leads to my final point, imposter syndrome. The constant fear that this cool topic I am writing about or the demo for this thing I built is actually a trivial thing or, even worse, it’s wrong.
So what now? I guess nothing…